Love Letter, October 2024: Grief

For some reason the universe has decided to turn the landscape of my inner world into turmoil. Daily practices and routines have boarded the turbulent ride of inconsistency. Rather then understanding why and overanalysing until exhaustion, I find myself, with some resistance, accepting my predicament, so I can take the next step that I’ve been planning for so long. 

Last week's powerful supermoon amplified emotions and grief was something that came up for me. I find a self-healing practice to help when feeling such intense emotions is writing a love letter.

Here is a love letter to myself from grief:

Dearest one, I saw you crying the other day after bumping into that lady from the gym. It's hard to not feel devastated when you’re reminded of the life that you once led. The life you thought you would be living right now. The life you wish you had!

I'm sorry you have this shitty condition and this annoying fatigue that comes along with it.I'm sorry that you feel angry and cheated from having a vibrant life. But darling, don't push me away. Allow me to flow with your tears and lie with you in bed. Don't push me away and pretend all is okay. Afraid to show your loved ones how you're not coping well right now.  If you embrace me, I can help you find your way back to yourself. Back to loving yourself . 

I know you don't feel great about your body at the moment. Menopause creating that middle belly and fatigue making it hard to get motivated for exercise. Always feeling depleted. When you saw that lady, she reminded you of what you've lost. It's okay to feel a moment of sadness and to feel angry, but I'm here to remind you that if you dig a little deeper, you will find compassion for yourself.

I know that you secretly like the womanly curves of softness. Sometimes I catch you fondly caressing that round belly with a smile ever so slightly on your lips. I know that you love this slow living that fatigue has imposed upon you. We really wouldn't have it any other way.  

Remember, what Pema Chödrön says, we already have everything we need, there is no need for self-improvement.

I’m not here to make your life difficult or hard. I'm here to show you darkness so that when light appears you recognise it. You will know what gratitude looks like and what it feels like. I'm here to help you know yourself better and help you find new ways to live your life.

So my love, rest well, relax, and allow the tranquil ocean waves float you back to land. 

Love,

Grief xx 

Is there something that has recently changed in your life? I invite you to write a letter from grief about it. 

Letter writing is a self healing practice that we can all do. You could even burn the letter as a way of letting go what has been expressed. Super effective on a full moon. 

Big love, Jo xx

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